Things

Lots of stuff.

• Apparently, physical activity will reset my "kinda down" button. Went to dance class not coping, came out ok. I'll have to see if little bits of physical activity do the trick, or if it has to be a skilled activity, or what. Mmm, experimentation.
  
• I wanted to thank joedecker for showing me how to sign up for syndicated feeds. They are hella cool and enable me to work AND read lj at the same time. Sweet!
  
• I still have to check out nikkinewsnet
  
• I apparently have been converted to a Californian, as I eat lots of avocado, drink smoothies, consider hot tubs a necessity, and say hella a lot.
  
• Had a REALLY bad nightmare; components of it are emerging as a pattern in my nightmares. I haven't had nightmares since I was in elementary school. When you have a bad one, how do you forget it? Having unseelie hold me, pet me, um, distract me, didn't quite do it, being out in the sunlight helped but not enough...
  
• Nightmare seems to be prompted by inner issues that my subconscious is sick of holding in. I'm tired of drama and angst, though, and want a break. So as an experiment, I'm trying to not think about the nightmare or process the issues connected with it, but its really HARD. How do all you guys box up/bottle up your shit? I've never done it consciously so I haven't the foggiest idea how to do it.
  
• And boy was it a fucked up, unrealistic nightmare, but knowing that doesn't help.
  

That's all for now!

on formative psychology/neurochemistry

From the age of 6 to 16, I figured skated a lot. Exercising nearly every day from probably age 9 to 16. I was very active obviously, and I KNOW my body does not act normally w/ respect to exercise... for instance, I would skate, get home 30 minutes later, and crash pretty much right away. That's supposedly not natural, but I had no sleeping problems before college.

I'm only just now wondering what kind of impact that had on my neurochemistry. Maybe I need to exercise 5 days a week in some intense way to be a well adjusted individual. Do you think that's even possible?

I don't know anything about the way the environment interacts with our eventual neurochemistry, but I know that it does. Any thoughts on the impact my active life may have had on my neurochemistry and/or psychology?

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Bush has declared Oct. 26-Nov.1 Protection from Pornography Week; I would like to instead proclaim it Celebrate Erotica Week, following sinboy's lead.

He suggests making next week Celebrate Erotica Week as opposed to the week Bush is using.

Clearly there should be a pr0n showing, but its a little late for this week. I'd like to see if there's any interest/if it would be feasible. Although I might provide my bedroom for a masturbation/sex room, the main socializing space would be a no masturbation-zone for maximum comfort, except where all attendees vote otherwise.

People could bring their laptops with lots of porn loaded on to show their favorite porn. People could use my digital camera to make their own porn! yay!

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Weight Loss/Body Work filter, please read

So I know there are people out there who do not like hearing about weight loss, dieting, exercising, etc.

I firmly believe that I do NOT have body image issues. I know what my body looks like. I think I'm sexy. I would find myself MORE attractive if I lost some weight. Consider that I'm 5'2", and about 175. I'd like to be more in the 130, 140 range, but would settle for 150. Doctors would have me believe that if I weigh more than 120 I'm in the unhealthy range; I think they are full of shit.

Anyway, in spite of the fact that I don't think I have "issues" regarding my body, I do know that others do, and those issues may be triggered by hearing me talk about dieting, weight loss, exercising for weight loss, etc.

So I'm creating a body work filter in which I will put any posts that mention weight loss, exercise for the purpose of weight loss, dieting, etc.

If you do NOT want to be on this filter, please let me know so I can not include you. Keep in mind that I'll be reviewing that armband thing for the mag, and you will not get to hear about it and how much it rocks or sucks if you are not on that filter. Of course, the short sweet review will be in the newsletter sometime in late December early January.

Wanna see me Latin dance in competition?

Squeee!

OK, I've officially been tempted by tunape. He's driving up from LA for the San Jose State U Competition on Saturday, Nov. 15, and I want to see him, and well, I could compete... It's only a $15 registration fee...

For those who want to see me compete, if I pull this off I'll be on the floor between 9 and 10 p.m. and admission for you will be $5.

For those of you in the South Bay, I may need crash space and company Saturday night and then Sunday a ride back to the city in time to get to my self-defence course at 12:30 p.m. in the Mission. Any takers?

Edit:

I just remembered that I'm committed to going to a party IN San Jose that night. But if unseelie were willing, we could drive down at the beginning of the day, he could drop me off at the competition, he could spend the day with nytemuse, and then someone (him perhaps) could pick me up from the comp and take me to the party, and then unclear things would happen afterwards to get me back to SF in time for BAMM the next day.