Migraine, day, and Power of Now

[danaeris]

A migraine has been growing all day. I thought I had tided it off, but after my therapy session it hit with a vengeance.

Had to restart the entire second side of the baby hat; the yarn does stripes, and it had started in an entirely different place. The stripes wouldn't have matched up at all.

My fridge had been freezing everything, and when I turned it down, I apparently turned it off. Stinky fridge. Cleaned out the things that I believe are done with, but I see scrubbing in my future.

I've taken another migraine med, and am praying that the migraine will subside. In the meantime, I've popped in Shakespeare in Love, and will lazily work on stuff on my laptop until I feel up to more active things, like cleaning the fridge and doing laundry.

In spite of all of the above, I'm in a good mood. I had a good therapy session. And, a relatively nice, albeit short, coversation with Knotty_mark. And, while I do not know if they will amount to anything, I've had two possible nibbles on the housing front. Still not much of anything on the job front though. It's quite demoralizing.

I've also begun reading the Power of Now, as assigned by my therapist. Interesting. Trying to be openminded and not judge. I'm only 15 pages in, but if I understand rightly, he's suggesting that we just shrug off our internal programming. Sounds lovely, but I have difficulty believing it is as easy as he would have us believe. I can do it in some moments. I can step outside my feelings and thoughts at times, and for whole periods of time. But to simply say, "I reject you from here on out." And then to simply be. I'm not sure I believe it can be.

Comments

[metalana.livejournal.com]

I don't know the specific book, but I do know it is possible to eventually almost change your internal programming. In myself, I know I've shrugged off the Catholic guilt, and that was fairly quick. The control-freak-ness has been suppressed, channelled and regulated, but it's still there; behaviour is easier to change than fundamental nature.

But good on you to work on the therapy thing, it should eventually make life easier. Hugs!

[danaeris.livejournal.com]

The author of this book claims to have had an epiphany and in that moment, achieved permanent enlightenment, through which he has in one motion, overcome all of this programming, stepping outside of it.

I absolutely believe that through hard work, I can erase or replace my negative programming. But to simply shrug it off like a scratchy robe, and be free, forevermore? I'm highly skeptical.

[metalana.livejournal.com]

Oh yuck. Have a good discussion with your therapist about your doubts about the method & likelihood. There are more realistic books out there. Hey, maybe the therapist gave you this one to provoke your response!

[pyat.livejournal.com]

From what I've read, the author is pretty mystically minded. His books tend to get sold in the same section as, like, the Celestine Propechies and stuff by that fellow with the name I can't remember.

Yeah, that guy.

[jackspryte.livejournal.com]

James Redfield he also wrote companion books and a sequel.

[pyat.livejournal.com]

Deepak Chopra is who I was thinking of. Not to suggest there's any kind of connection between Chopra and the "Power of Now" guy, though, aside from being sold in the same part of the bookstore.

[jackspryte.livejournal.com]

I had an intense migraine most of yesterday and worked through it. I had three Ibuprofen and that helped keep it mild.

Radical changes in the barometric pressure can be responsible for some headaches I wonder if this was the problem.

[jackspryte.livejournal.com]

http://headaches.about.com/od/triggers/a/ahs_weath_trig.htm

[vsbooklady.livejournal.com]

The problem with self-help books is that they're highly subjective. What brings on a mental "click" of recognition, that feeling of "yes, that's exactly it", will be different for different people. The bestsellers like "Power of Now" or "4 Agreements" are bestsellers because *more* people are recognizing what they feel in it. Personally, I find most of these far too facile. What may bring on a moment of understanding for you could be a self help book, or it could be a novel, or a book of philosophy. Ask a friend who seems to really understand you what they think.