Call me irritable

[danaeris]

I must be irritable today. I was in a great mood... not as good as some other days, but relatively good, and then some things went annoyingly poorly, and I seem to have been in a bad mood ever since.

I shouldn't let work bother me so much, but the truth is that I care about how good a job I do. This doesn't mean that I DO a good job, but it does mean that when I don't I feel shitty, irritated, anxious, etc.

Working is a constant struggle. When I work hard all day, I'm exhausted and don't have time to get my own stuff done. When I slack all day, I descend into a spiral of low self-respect.

Happiness, I hypothesize non-seriously, is the tightrope I attempt to walk between those two categories.

Or something.

Comments

[mikz.livejournal.com]

annoyingly poorly

Yay! Only three months out of the U.S. and she's using adverbs where they should be used! =) (Well, maybe you always do, but most people down here don't, and after six years of resistance I'm finding it's starting to rub off on me, too.)

Anyhow, long time no LJ read. I'm wondering how you're doing, so I'm going to read your journal for a bit. I hope you're well.

<hugz>

[dicedork.livejournal.com]

She always did. ;)

[fyfer.livejournal.com]

I've been reading all these first-line-of-novel meme posts today, and so I kept wanting to read your subject line as "Call me Ishmael." (Moby Dick)

I hope your day improved. I have the same problem with work things suddenly triggering a bad mood and a cascade of self-criticism. I've started taking a short walk around the building when things get frustrating.