State of the Dana

[danaeris]

Yesterday was a lovely day. Given the messed up antidepressant schedule, I only had one small mood crash that only lasted about 20 minutes. And in contrast to that, I had a lot of fun. I was very lucky that my mood chemistry decided to stay that sane.

Thanks to all those who let me know that Walgreens will give you emergency pills; they gave me three, so I'm taken care of through tomorrow. Hopefully my doctor will come through before then...

Today I defeated the evil minions of Crunch, and will mail the envelope which will cancel my membership. The only thing the evil fitness empire is doing that sucks is that they are charging me a $50 cancellation fee even though this cancellation is warranted under the contract. And, it would be nice if they would let me cancel it at the gym instead of having to mail documentation and cancellation request to this po box. Oh well. It could be much worse.

I'm also working to conquer my insane social paranoia. To spell it out, emotionally, I perceive myself as somewhere between tolerated and "liked, but not liked enough to be worth private time outside of a party with" as far as most people are concerned. I do not perceive myself as popular, well-liked, etc. This is because I am insane, and most likely not because of any failing on your part. Someone recently pointed this dichotomy out, and I find it interesting. I am striving to conquer it... I think a few months of an active social schedule in spite of having to avoid a certain person will destroy this perception. Hopefully. Now I just need to make said active social schedule happen! Must email nifty folk and arrange for time with them. Must not be afraid of rejection from the ones I perceive as too busy for me or too popular or whatever. lalalala.

Oh, and I'm nauseous. I have no idea why.

Today will find me Getting Stuff Done, working out, and doing laundry during Happy Hour at Brainwash. Isn't it exciting?

Comments

Interesting...

[tenacious-snail.livejournal.com]

because while I don't know you well, I perceive you as well-liked and popular. Heck your name came up when looking for examples of yummy women, and its not just because of your drool-worthy icons.

Re: Interesting...

[danaeris.livejournal.com]

Aww! Interestingly, I don't view being attractive as being connected to being popular; I think I've always had a reasonable level of self-esteem and immodesty about my looks, but I've always had self-esteem problems about being well-liked.

Did we meet at the PPP and chat a lot, along with friends of mine? And then again at a picnic/surprise bday party? I just added you; I've noticed you commenting a couple of times on my posts.

Re: Interesting...

[tenacious-snail.livejournal.com]

Yes, as to how/where we've met and seen each other.

And while I recognize that someone could be a hottie whom no one likes, it doesn't seem like such a person would come up as an example of "what kind of woman do you find yummy?", does it?

Re: Interesting...

[danaeris.livejournal.com]

Hmm. You have a point. I guess I should remember that people wouldn't still be attracted to me/interested in me if they thought I sucked. Or at least, not most of the people in our social crowd. We run with some way cool people in that respect (and in others!).

Will I be seeing you if I go to the poly flock this weekend? (or you could respond to the poll you should be able to see a couple posts back in my journal now)

Pardon me while my inner language nazi cringes.

[auros]

Will you hit me if I mention that the modern use of the word "nauseous" (which was not originally a synonym for "nauseated" -- it used to refer to the quality of causing nausea) drives me up the wall?

Re: Pardon me while my inner language nazi cringes.

[fyfer.livejournal.com]

Heh. That's my grandmother's major pet peeve, passed on through my mother to me. I'm ok with "nauseous" at this point, though, since it's definitely shifted in meaning.

Re: Pardon me while my inner language nazi cringes.

[vvvexation.livejournal.com]

Thing is, "nauseated" just doesn't sound right. Too passive, like something that happened to you instead of a feeling.

Re: Pardon me while my inner language nazi cringes.

[auros]

There are plenty of feelings, positive and negative, that fit that model: If something flusters you, you're flustered; if something excites you, you're excited; if something nauseates you, you're nauseated; and so on.

Re: Pardon me while my inner language nazi cringes.

[vvvexation.livejournal.com]

I know, but it still doesn't sound right to me.

Re: Pardon me while my inner language nazi cringes.

[auros]

I find it nauseous. :-P

[plymouth.livejournal.com]

oh, but I can totally see being flusteous or exciteous! (though I think they work better as flustious and excitious) Maybe I should start using those terms in normal conversation ;)

See, that's the thing - a thing that excites you is exciting, not excitious, so why shouldn't a think that nauseates you be nauseating instead of nauseous? why does that concept need a different form? are there any other concepts that use that form? righteous? I think that's different. In fact I think people often say "it made me feel righteous". Is that wrong?

right. not a grammar geek. in fact I rather have a habit of bending grammar to my own wills rather than the other way 'round. *runs away*

[auros]

Well, I wasn't saying that the language is consistent, just that there are plenty of words that follow the pattern that the nausea-related words followed, up until shift in usage started. At this point, I'm aware that the original meaning has been pretty much lost, but that's how I learned it, and whenever people use it, it registers are wrong. Like if somebody, instead of saying, "I feel annoyed," said, "I feel annoying." It makes me want to say, "Yes, yes you are."

Neologisms, on the other hand, are always fair game. I think "flusteous" would be a great term for something that causes one to become flustered. (Hmm, must find good excuse to use it that way. *g*) I'm particularly fond of irregular plurals. I use "boxen" to refer to multiple computers, and "corpi" (an intentionally-wrong Latinate plural) for the plural of "corpus" (we have lots of corpi, one for each language we support). Oh, and I refer to people being carful or carless. And so on.

Basically, I don't mind throwing new words around. I don't even mind having words altered by intent (e.g. the claiming of originally-derisive words like "queer" or "treehugger" by those they were aimed against). But it annoys me when words have their meaning altered because people are ignorant of what they originally meant.

I'm also fine with alternate grammar constructions as long as they don't create ambiguity. (Like, even though I have some kinda negative associations with the Penna habit of altering "needs to be Xed" and "needs Xing" constructions to "needs X", I do sort of like its concision.)

Like I said: inner language nazi. I'm the guy who would happily spend an hour at a time reading a thesaurus as a kid. If it were up to me, everybody would be forced to study etymology in elementary school. (So it's probably a good thing it's not up to me.)

Pay me no mind. Once the subject is dropped, I'll forget about it in a day or so. Until somebody uses it wrong around me again. *sigh*