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danaerisDifferent people love so differently... and though the intellect may understand that, it can be so very hard to convince the subconscious of that...
Sin was great Friday night; Unseelie cuddled me and we napped and I calmed down from my anxiety attack state.
Unfortunately, drunkenness and hangovers led to Saturday going all awry... no private time for me and Unseelie and being rushed out the door to make it to the competition at a reasonable hour.
The competition was fun but weird; I haven't competed in over 3 years, and now that I'm somuch more self-aware, feeling myself get nervous was... interesting. I didn't post info so that y'all could come watch because I wasn't sure until late in the day whether I'd be dancing, given the stuffed up nose and breathing difficulties. But maybe it was for the best, given my nervousness (a new thing for me, or something I didn't notice/acknowledge back in the day). The judges were stupid and didn't pass us on even though we totally were way better than two couples who made the cut... oh well. That's the way it goes.
Party was cool but we were both off, tired from various things.
BAMM/Impact was great. Then time with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
dragon_spirit, and dinner, and anime and the disappointing discovery that I'm NOT done with Escaflowne. Grr. I was wondering how they'd tie up the plot in only 3 more episodes. Now its clear that they don't!
Brief weird drama, almost all on my part, with Unseelie centering around lack of time together... or the time we HAVEN'T had together. Last date night we had was two weeks ago. We've had brief snatches of time in 1-3 hour stretches of varying quality, but only one that left me particularly satisfied feeling, and that's in about 2 weeks. I ache, I miss him so much. It hurts. Anyway. Things will be ok. We talked and worked things out. Now I'm just calming down.
*breathe in, breathe out* meditation. Maybe a shower. And sleep.
Sin was great Friday night; Unseelie cuddled me and we napped and I calmed down from my anxiety attack state.
Unfortunately, drunkenness and hangovers led to Saturday going all awry... no private time for me and Unseelie and being rushed out the door to make it to the competition at a reasonable hour.
The competition was fun but weird; I haven't competed in over 3 years, and now that I'm somuch more self-aware, feeling myself get nervous was... interesting. I didn't post info so that y'all could come watch because I wasn't sure until late in the day whether I'd be dancing, given the stuffed up nose and breathing difficulties. But maybe it was for the best, given my nervousness (a new thing for me, or something I didn't notice/acknowledge back in the day). The judges were stupid and didn't pass us on even though we totally were way better than two couples who made the cut... oh well. That's the way it goes.
Party was cool but we were both off, tired from various things.
BAMM/Impact was great. Then time with
dragon_spirit, and dinner, and anime and the disappointing discovery that I'm NOT done with Escaflowne. Grr. I was wondering how they'd tie up the plot in only 3 more episodes. Now its clear that they don't!Brief weird drama, almost all on my part, with Unseelie centering around lack of time together... or the time we HAVEN'T had together. Last date night we had was two weeks ago. We've had brief snatches of time in 1-3 hour stretches of varying quality, but only one that left me particularly satisfied feeling, and that's in about 2 weeks. I ache, I miss him so much. It hurts. Anyway. Things will be ok. We talked and worked things out. Now I'm just calming down.
*breathe in, breathe out* meditation. Maybe a shower. And sleep.
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Date: 2003-11-17 09:44 am (UTC)you could toss me into overshare and/or writers, as i'm a queer slightly kinky writer of sorts.