updates, clarifications, etc.

Being reconnected to the net has again upped my anxiety. Huh. I wonder what it is about the internet that makes me anxious. Well, about being connected to the outside world. I was using my browser for research earlier, but I didn't once open my mail program or peek at lj, and I didn't want to .

I finished the chapter I was working on; just need to proofread it before sending it off. Which means that I am now officially 2/3 done! I only have 8 chapters left, and they are all about neat stuff like relativity and quantum mechanics and particle physics. *bounce*

I made myself another tasty mac and cheese meal with sausage, corn, and broccoli mixed in, except I think it was too effective, because I overate. Some combination of that, the coke I've been drinking, and my anxiety have given me a stomach ache. Three tums later and lots of water, and its still aching. :(

I also regroomed my hair. Still have enormous amounts of oily dandruff, but not a single louse that I can see. Still paranoid. Not sure what to do about the dandruff either; some places I read refer to is as a dry problem that should be moisturized and others refer to it as an oily problem that needs to be rebalanced. Some say to shower daily, others say to not shower as often. The Tea Tree oil shampoo is supposedly an herbal dandruff shampoo, but it doesn't seem to be doing the trick, so I might just give that bottle of denorex another try.

I've been finding new methods that I think actually work for me with the writing contract. With this chapter, I went through the chapter with pen and paper and no laptop and wrote down all the things I thought I needed to know or might want to include in a question. I also made sure I understood them all. Then, the writing was easy. See, this process has three main parts. Reviewing the material until I understand it well enough to write about it. Choosing the topics to test and conceiving of how to test them, and then actually writing the questions. I haven't been breaking the project down like that until now and of course its seemed like this big huge deal. All of that IS a lot of work, but at the same time I WANT to review these things and have a firm grasp on them, and if I break it down like that it doesn't seem nearly as bad.

As for my little freak out earlier tonight, don't worry, all of you. It wasn't you.

Keep in mind, I've been working constantly for over a month. I just got a shot full of hormones yesterday, and I'm about to be switched to a different schedule of antidepressants because this one isn't working. I'm also more sexually deprived than I've been in about, oh, four years WHILE my hormones are going bonkers. On top of that, some good friends have finally decided to lean on me, and that makes me really happy and I DON'T want them to stop (really!), but I will occasionally (like tonight) need to escape and take time to myself.

So. I love you all. And now it is time for some sleep. G'night!

Today

• Ate breakfast
  
• showered and shave half of the parts I wanted to
  
• proof and send in the chapter I just finished
  
• Relativity!
  
• Pack for BayCon
  
• Maybe pick up some glitter at Walgreens and/or Sephora
  
• visit deedeebythebay to pick something up from her
  
• get to bed early enough to be ready to go at 9 a.m. when the_ogre shows up to pick me up

The packing for BayCon is a bit of a conundrum. See, I'm not feeling too sexy nowadays. I've reached a stage where I look in the mirror and no longer see a body I find attractive. AND I don't fit into some of my pretty clothes, so I'll have to try everything on before I pack it, which could be a bad experience. So. Obviously I need some encouragement that y'all still think I'm sexy. Here's a really stupid, vain poll in which I kindly ask you to cajole me, preferably with honesty but I'm flexible on that point.

[Poll #299892]

I love my friends

I just needed to pause and say how much I love my friends.

You are all such neato individualistic people. I love watching friends who haven't met yet interact on my journal for the first time.

I love imagining how they WILL interact when and if they do eventually meet.

You all rock in your own spiffy individual ways and you make my world a better place. Thank you for being such varied, interesting people who still manage to have so much in common with me and with each other.

Baycon packing part 2

So tonight I will be spending most of the evening, though not all, packing for BayCon. This will involve trying on a lot of clothing and trying to figure out what I still feel comfortable in/what looks good on me.

Is there anyone who would like to come and hang out and watch me repeatedly strip and change clothes?

(no subject)

Wow. That is by far the most arrogant piece of mail I've ever gotten on a dating website. This one on OK Cupid. The gentleman in question is very good looking, but is only a 60% match for me (which is abysmal imo). He is also in England, which is awfully far away, and has bad spelling and grammar.

He writes:
CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!

hi my names peter im 23 and from the uk!

you have won the star prize in a competition to talk to me!

you have won unlimited talk time with me and the push of a button!

to claim your prise just reply to this message!

and again congratulations!

lol

;)

Loser alert! Should I send him back a bitchy sarcastic message riffing off his message?