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Last night, hermits and IM
Sep. 17th, 2002 09:53 amYesterday was an evening of unexpectedness.
I was about to leave to catch a shuttle, and I was offered a ride. Got home more than 1 hour earlier than if I had taken shuttle-->caltrain.
Watched Ghost World. Good, but fucked up, movie.
Went to pizza. Resisted the urge to turn into a bitch like the kid in Ghost World. There was this guy staring at a list of phone numbers. I glanced at him, and resisted the urge to say, "If you stare at it long enough, maybe you'll memorize the numbers!"
The world does not need another bitchy snob.
We went back to unseelie's place and started writing up a guest list for the party... The plan was to write up the guest list, then hop in the car, stop off at my place and grab some stuff, back to his place, shower, and get to bed early so that I could get enough sleep, and the recovering invalid could get extra sleep.
Instead, we spent the next 3-4 hours staring into each other's souls, examining each others minds, coming closer to each other. Cuddling and touching and loving. It was necessary and good for both of us. Therapeutic.
So why do I feel this way today? I was mean to LawBard, who for some unseen reason likes me enough to seek me out on IM *every day*. I want to be left alone today----I want to be a hermit jealous of her privacy.
I'm not sure though that this is a bad mood. I suspect it to be an inflexible mood---I want to be left alone, I want to be private and quiet, except for a few people. Anyone who tries to impose upon my space will be bitched out promptly. But that doesn't make it a BAD mood. Just an unusual one that may be confusing to my friends.
Unseelie said that being on IM is an invitation for chat. I don't think that's true. I use IM so that *I* can talk to the people *I* want to, or be available for logistical discussions when I'm needed. I've NEVER liked idle chat. I either want to be having an interesting intellectual conversation, discussing logistics, or not talking at all. Well, that's not true. There are some few people with whom I find idle chat worthwhile. Almost always, unseelie and rigel. A bunch of other people occasionally.
I guess I should clarify what I mean. If you have something specific to talk about, "I just got laid off" or "I'm worried about this friend of mine" or "I'm thinking of having a party this Saturday" for instance, I don't mind at all. I welcome such conversation. It is real and valuable. Random banter is not, but can intersperse such a conversation when necessary.
I guess I've never used IRC and I'm fairly new to IM. I used some chat mediums when I was in high school, but it was always to rendezvous with a specific person. I model all my live chat experiences off of MIT zephyr, and people treat zephyr very differently than chat or IM. Or at least, I feel they do
I was about to leave to catch a shuttle, and I was offered a ride. Got home more than 1 hour earlier than if I had taken shuttle-->caltrain.
Watched Ghost World. Good, but fucked up, movie.
Went to pizza. Resisted the urge to turn into a bitch like the kid in Ghost World. There was this guy staring at a list of phone numbers. I glanced at him, and resisted the urge to say, "If you stare at it long enough, maybe you'll memorize the numbers!"
The world does not need another bitchy snob.
We went back to unseelie's place and started writing up a guest list for the party... The plan was to write up the guest list, then hop in the car, stop off at my place and grab some stuff, back to his place, shower, and get to bed early so that I could get enough sleep, and the recovering invalid could get extra sleep.
Instead, we spent the next 3-4 hours staring into each other's souls, examining each others minds, coming closer to each other. Cuddling and touching and loving. It was necessary and good for both of us. Therapeutic.
So why do I feel this way today? I was mean to LawBard, who for some unseen reason likes me enough to seek me out on IM *every day*. I want to be left alone today----I want to be a hermit jealous of her privacy.
I'm not sure though that this is a bad mood. I suspect it to be an inflexible mood---I want to be left alone, I want to be private and quiet, except for a few people. Anyone who tries to impose upon my space will be bitched out promptly. But that doesn't make it a BAD mood. Just an unusual one that may be confusing to my friends.
Unseelie said that being on IM is an invitation for chat. I don't think that's true. I use IM so that *I* can talk to the people *I* want to, or be available for logistical discussions when I'm needed. I've NEVER liked idle chat. I either want to be having an interesting intellectual conversation, discussing logistics, or not talking at all. Well, that's not true. There are some few people with whom I find idle chat worthwhile. Almost always, unseelie and rigel. A bunch of other people occasionally.
I guess I should clarify what I mean. If you have something specific to talk about, "I just got laid off" or "I'm worried about this friend of mine" or "I'm thinking of having a party this Saturday" for instance, I don't mind at all. I welcome such conversation. It is real and valuable. Random banter is not, but can intersperse such a conversation when necessary.
I guess I've never used IRC and I'm fairly new to IM. I used some chat mediums when I was in high school, but it was always to rendezvous with a specific person. I model all my live chat experiences off of MIT zephyr, and people treat zephyr very differently than chat or IM. Or at least, I feel they do
