oopsie, no Sin

[danaeris]

So apparently it is NEXT month that my Feri class is postponed.

Which means that we won't be at Sin at all because it isn't worth going to that late given that we would have to pay so much more to get in. But next month we'll be able to make it. w00t.

This also means that ScionFey and I are totally unprepared for the class. :( We both thought we had another two weeks so we slacked off on prep. oops.

I have a new laptop battery and found a reliable wireless network in my neighbourhood. I know the owner, John. He runs Meat. I need to grab him next time I see him and ask him if he minds my using his network. He's another MIT alum.

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don't worry

[veedub.livejournal.com]

...about being unprepared... the class notes are in the files section under "notes", and you will be invoking West, so just make sure you know that one.

i've been doing kala/kabaza/7chakra exercises like crazeeee all month, but my psychic development meditations have just...sorta...evaporated. arghhhh. how *do* these yogis and zenists do it, sitting still for hours and burning holes in the wall with their very gaze? and where did i get the idea that i could *teach* this stuph?

...well, actually, i *have* been able to visualize a little bit--i am now able to create a three-dimensional pyramid and spin it, but i still haven't gotten to the point where i can "see" nonphysical stuph with my eyes open. probably because i'm so visual that what's physically there takes up all my attention, like trying to talk to someone while the tv is on behind them. maybe if i stared at a blank wall... an impossibility in my house. maybe a blank ceiling...

Re: don't worry

[danaeris.livejournal.com]

Um. Is that in the ritual printout that we've had all along? To explain, today I'm at my internship all day. Then I take the train home and have to work on my freelance article on the train. I get home around 6 and have an hour to find some kind of food stuff that doesn't bankrupt ScionFey and I, and get to your place. So having to memorize something is non-trivial.

West works for me, though. I'm not convinced about calling North or East, but South and West work great for me. North, I'd feel like I was calling myself... it just feels weird. East I just don't relate to as well as with South and West.

I don't have the kala rite memorized because the version I have printed out is COMPLETELY different than what we do in class. I don't have the seven chakra chant memorized either. And I don't have the ritual memorized. I feel like a very bad student. :( I'm sorry. :(

As for your exercises... you don't have to be a l337 zen ninja to teach us. I think you're doing a great job in spite of your misgivings. And in part at least we can all learn TOGETHER. :)

I can sort of visualize with my eyes open, but it takes a lot of effort. I can sort of see Other with my eyes open, but without being in the right headspace it is VERY hard and in the right headspace unless I'm in really deep it still requires some minimal effort. Which may be good because walking around seeing Other all the time would be kinda... dangerous? bad in some way, anyway.

Re: don't worry

[veedub.livejournal.com]

yep, everything is in the ritual printout which you have. and certainly no prob about not having the whole ritual memorized. i'm not too sure i have it all down even yet (bad teacher. no donut), even though i have been trying to go through it without looking at it several times a week.

and as for the kala rite, i think the basic format is all you need. there's been a wonderful thread all about kala on the freeform list (did you join that one?) which has helped me a *whole* lot the last couple of days when i was struggling with being stuck in a corner, so to speak. oh, all you gotta do is turn around so the corner's behind you, and you can just....walk....away. doh!

if i don't have to be a zen ninja, then you don't have to be the perfect student (whew, what a load off *my* mind!);D. all i ask (from you or any of the other students) is that you really *be* as present as you can when you are present in class, and enjoy the learning process as far as you are able. as someone said, very wisely, 99% of practice is just showing up no matter what.

...oh, and my particular "magic pill" is nortriptyline. i started taking it for headaches and it got rid of my night terrors and agitated depression. better living through pharmacy.....

[urbanbard.livejournal.com]

Quick question.
Is Moonbase Folsom still having a post Sin party tomorrow (friday) night?

[danaeris.livejournal.com]

yes.

I find this question annoying. I'm debating as to why. It could be that I'm just irritable today, which is no fault of your own. But the question implies that we are unreliable. If I say "I may be having people over tonight, give me a call if you're interested" then asking if I'm still having people over tonight is reasonable and fine. But if I invite an entire friends list for an after party (and some other email lists), and then you ask me... that's kind of insulting. My initial reaction was to respond, "No, we decided to cancel it based on the phase of the moon." Of COURSE if it were cancelled there would be an announcement in all the spaces it was publicized.

So yeah. Here's Questioner being a bitch. I knew my inner bitch would come out eventually...

[kaidevis.livejournal.com]

I can understand why it would annoy you, but it's something I'd idly wondered as well. I'm considering throwing on my leather pants and corset and heading on over to Sin tonight, and then showing it off later as I promised I would. Plus it's a great excuse to finally get out and wear it out somewhere instead of just petting it whenever I walk by it in my room. :-)

So, safe bet I'll be dropping by for the afterparty. See you later!

[urbanbard.livejournal.com]

Doh! I'm sorry, I should have been clearer in my question. I didn't mean at all to imply that you were being flaky, and I'm sorry if it came off that way.

I was just confused, which was due to my own need to be anal and make sure I understand exactly what is going on, not because your post was unclear.

Looking forward to tonight,

-Urbanbard