Serendipity and Fear
Jan. 5th, 2002 03:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
danaerisYesterday on my way to visit Sonja, there was this guy on the T. He was fairly normal looking, kinda cute, twenty something. He got off at Harvard. And I kid you not, he was either scratching or picking his nose WITH HIS TONGUE.
I spent most of the T ride staring at him, torn between admiration of the dexterity and length of his tongue, and disgust at what he was doing. It was so weird.
While I'm posting, I might as well mention my latest source of 'angst'---I did some calculations, and unless I greatly misunderstand the nature of financial aid at Boston University's grad program, there's literally NO WAY I could afford it. In the best case (financially) scenario I could come up with, I was still short at least $6000 per year. Which makes me question whether it is worth applying to the program... if there's no way I can attend even if I get in, what's the point of spending energy on the application and paying the $60 fee? Dunno.
And thinking about that of course reminds me of all the uncertainty in my life. June is coming up, and beyond it is this great black abyss, a void my eyes cannot pierce. I have no idea what lies beyond it. I can't know, not yet. That's scary.
Anyway, I'm going to go work on my game or my novel or something productive like that.
I spent most of the T ride staring at him, torn between admiration of the dexterity and length of his tongue, and disgust at what he was doing. It was so weird.
While I'm posting, I might as well mention my latest source of 'angst'---I did some calculations, and unless I greatly misunderstand the nature of financial aid at Boston University's grad program, there's literally NO WAY I could afford it. In the best case (financially) scenario I could come up with, I was still short at least $6000 per year. Which makes me question whether it is worth applying to the program... if there's no way I can attend even if I get in, what's the point of spending energy on the application and paying the $60 fee? Dunno.
And thinking about that of course reminds me of all the uncertainty in my life. June is coming up, and beyond it is this great black abyss, a void my eyes cannot pierce. I have no idea what lies beyond it. I can't know, not yet. That's scary.
Anyway, I'm going to go work on my game or my novel or something productive like that.
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aauuggh!
Date: 2002-01-05 05:43 pm (UTC)Secondly.....www.salliemae.com. Yes, they're private loans, but you can loan out as much as you need or as little as you want. It will get you the education you need. Yes, you'll pay for it later, but you'll have a graduate degree and make more money...right?
that's what i did, and it saved me from having to drop out of college.