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danaerisThe last week has been up and down.
Wednesday I was feeling anxious about the resignation letter, eventually concluding that since I was having panic attacks over the idea of going into the old office, I should probably just fax in the letter (done!). Had lunch with my parents, got some stuff done, and then headed to Arcadia for a date with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
rbowspryte, which went fabulously.
Had a really nasty nightmare that night involving abandonment and people disliking me or being disenchanted with me. Spent all day Thursday being depressed/basket-case-y.
Friday morning I went into Hassle Free and tested negative for HIV. Yeehaw.
I had intended to get stuff done that afternoon, but I was just exhausted. Been having energy issues as well as early awakening, leading to not having enough sleep.
That evening was a classic movie night, which was fun. I even managed to mend a lot of my clothes -- all but two of the items that can be done by hand. I also scored a sun dress and two nice tops fromdarkestembrace's pile of clothes.
Saturday I got a quick visit fromwill279802 and then met up with tocityguy and his daughter for fabric shopping. We made it through about half of the fabric stores between Spadina and Bathurst on Queen, and I got an idea of the kinds of fabrics she enjoys.
I think she would like these ones:
See, I'm making her a duvet cover with coordinating curtains for the guest bedroom, as a relatively basic project to learn from. I'm also making myself some curtains made out of heavy, opaque fabric. The idea is to block out the sun and maybe even some noise.
The good news is that Fabricland is about to have a huge sale:
http://www.fabricland.ca/sale.html
I may go check it out sometime in the next week or two. Yay fabric!
Saturday at 4 I went to my first Cafe Scientifique (Please check it out at http://www.cafescientifique.ca). The topic was Alternative Medicine. I learned about something called Evidence Based Medicine. This is what I'm talking about, baby! Now when I see a new doctor, I'll know to ask them if they practice this.
What is Evidence Based Medicine?
The next one is talking about going to Mars. Wee!
Thenyaksman (who I had met at the CS event) grabbed a massive meaty dinner at the Korean BBQ place down the street, followed by Ben and Jerry's. I was good and had the low-fat yogurt. B&J low fat is way more satisfying than Baskin Robbins, I have to say. Too bad they are so few and far between...
We walked all the way back to Elysium while eating our ice cream, holding hands and chatting. It was nice!
Afterwards we were supposed to go to Fetish Masquerade, but it just wasn't going to happen... we were both feeling very pleasantly settled. I still got dressed up to show everyone the outfit I planned to wear, and helpeddarkestembrace with her hair. She looked awesomely hawt, btw.
Instead of going out,yaksman and I stayed in and had some important discussions. I've been failing to communicate while making a lot of fear-based assumptions, and so I needed to open up that floor to discussion. It was good, and I feel much better, and I suspect he does too. Yay! Then we watched Clerks II, which I hadn't seen before. I liked it, but it got awfully serious for a Clerks movie.
Sunday morning we met up withwill279802 for brunch, and then he and I attempted to drive back to Arcadia. Traffic was bad, but the weather was so nice that I didn't care.
I was having some issues physically though. Tired, vertigo, nausea. I tried to drink lots of water and keep cool. I don't think I had heat stroke. I might have been low blood sugaring; dunno.
At Arcadia we had dinner with tocityguy and linuxspice, and then watched one of my new fav movies, Connie and Carla, while working on the 3D puzzle of the Taj Mahal (my first 3D puzzle ever!).
This morning I cooked myself a healthy breakfast, caught up on Way Too Much LJ, and tried to file a police report for the US identity theft I'm dealing with. Turns out it has to be done in person, so I have to be at home and be prepared to wait for the officer to come in from the Toronto PD, and then they'll fax the report to San Francisco -- with an identity fraud report, they have to see you in person to verify that you are who you say you are. Ah, it all makes sense now!
Now I need to write an email to my old workplace, and then get to work on my two current top priorities:
-the June 20 conference on sexuality (there's some paperwork due on the 27)
-getting back on the freelancing bandwagon
The latter is scaring me, so part of that will be figuring out how to frame the tasks I do so that they scare me as little as possible.
I also am seeing that I'm having increased issues with Insulin Resistance right now -- no surprise since I'm weighing in at my top weight of 198 lbs. at the moment. I'm just noticing that I feel more crappy if I eat poorly, and also that when I'm feeling really bad, a quick dose of high GI food makes me feel a lot better. That means I REALLY need to get to eating "perfectly" and lose weight and this time, damn it, keep it off.
Wednesday I was feeling anxious about the resignation letter, eventually concluding that since I was having panic attacks over the idea of going into the old office, I should probably just fax in the letter (done!). Had lunch with my parents, got some stuff done, and then headed to Arcadia for a date with
rbowspryte, which went fabulously.Had a really nasty nightmare that night involving abandonment and people disliking me or being disenchanted with me. Spent all day Thursday being depressed/basket-case-y.
Friday morning I went into Hassle Free and tested negative for HIV. Yeehaw.
I had intended to get stuff done that afternoon, but I was just exhausted. Been having energy issues as well as early awakening, leading to not having enough sleep.
That evening was a classic movie night, which was fun. I even managed to mend a lot of my clothes -- all but two of the items that can be done by hand. I also scored a sun dress and two nice tops from
darkestembrace's pile of clothes.Saturday I got a quick visit from
will279802 and then met up with tocityguy and his daughter for fabric shopping. We made it through about half of the fabric stores between Spadina and Bathurst on Queen, and I got an idea of the kinds of fabrics she enjoys.I think she would like these ones:
See, I'm making her a duvet cover with coordinating curtains for the guest bedroom, as a relatively basic project to learn from. I'm also making myself some curtains made out of heavy, opaque fabric. The idea is to block out the sun and maybe even some noise.
The good news is that Fabricland is about to have a huge sale:
http://www.fabricland.ca/sale.html
I may go check it out sometime in the next week or two. Yay fabric!
Saturday at 4 I went to my first Cafe Scientifique (Please check it out at http://www.cafescientifique.ca). The topic was Alternative Medicine. I learned about something called Evidence Based Medicine. This is what I'm talking about, baby! Now when I see a new doctor, I'll know to ask them if they practice this.
What is Evidence Based Medicine?
The next one is talking about going to Mars. Wee!
Then
yaksman (who I had met at the CS event) grabbed a massive meaty dinner at the Korean BBQ place down the street, followed by Ben and Jerry's. I was good and had the low-fat yogurt. B&J low fat is way more satisfying than Baskin Robbins, I have to say. Too bad they are so few and far between...We walked all the way back to Elysium while eating our ice cream, holding hands and chatting. It was nice!
Afterwards we were supposed to go to Fetish Masquerade, but it just wasn't going to happen... we were both feeling very pleasantly settled. I still got dressed up to show everyone the outfit I planned to wear, and helped
darkestembrace with her hair. She looked awesomely hawt, btw.Instead of going out,
yaksman and I stayed in and had some important discussions. I've been failing to communicate while making a lot of fear-based assumptions, and so I needed to open up that floor to discussion. It was good, and I feel much better, and I suspect he does too. Yay! Then we watched Clerks II, which I hadn't seen before. I liked it, but it got awfully serious for a Clerks movie.Sunday morning we met up with
will279802 for brunch, and then he and I attempted to drive back to Arcadia. Traffic was bad, but the weather was so nice that I didn't care.I was having some issues physically though. Tired, vertigo, nausea. I tried to drink lots of water and keep cool. I don't think I had heat stroke. I might have been low blood sugaring; dunno.
At Arcadia we had dinner with tocityguy and linuxspice, and then watched one of my new fav movies, Connie and Carla, while working on the 3D puzzle of the Taj Mahal (my first 3D puzzle ever!).
This morning I cooked myself a healthy breakfast, caught up on Way Too Much LJ, and tried to file a police report for the US identity theft I'm dealing with. Turns out it has to be done in person, so I have to be at home and be prepared to wait for the officer to come in from the Toronto PD, and then they'll fax the report to San Francisco -- with an identity fraud report, they have to see you in person to verify that you are who you say you are. Ah, it all makes sense now!
Now I need to write an email to my old workplace, and then get to work on my two current top priorities:
-the June 20 conference on sexuality (there's some paperwork due on the 27)
-getting back on the freelancing bandwagon
The latter is scaring me, so part of that will be figuring out how to frame the tasks I do so that they scare me as little as possible.
I also am seeing that I'm having increased issues with Insulin Resistance right now -- no surprise since I'm weighing in at my top weight of 198 lbs. at the moment. I'm just noticing that I feel more crappy if I eat poorly, and also that when I'm feeling really bad, a quick dose of high GI food makes me feel a lot better. That means I REALLY need to get to eating "perfectly" and lose weight and this time, damn it, keep it off.
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Date: 2007-04-23 10:55 pm (UTC)Thank you!!! Much fun was had. :-)
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Date: 2007-04-24 02:03 am (UTC)If you like I can give you my daughter's e-mail address and you can e-mail her about it too.
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Date: 2007-04-24 12:25 pm (UTC)The GI Diet
Date: 2007-04-25 07:09 pm (UTC)I have been trying to eat closer to the GI Diet guidelines and I've noticed that I'm feeling more energetic and positive. It also suggests going off caffeine which I did 2 months ago. I can't believe the difference! I've had fewer headaches and I'm not as lethargic mid-morning and mid-afternoon.
I have recently acknowledged the food/mood connection and I've experienced some of the same psychological and physical symptoms as you have. I know how frustrating it can be.
Cheers,
Seven
Re: The GI Diet
Date: 2007-04-25 07:25 pm (UTC)The issue is that when I weigh this much, there is a clear impetus to be true to the GI diet: I feel like crap if I don't. But when I get down around or below 190 lbs., I find I can eat "normally" or "crappily" and feel fine. So I start to do that, and gain the weight back. Wash, rinse, repeat.
It's about staying power, I guess, and about sticking with it.
The other problem is that when I first lost weight on the GI diet, I was living with my parents and having my shopping and cooking done for me for the most part. Learning to eat that carefully under my own power is a whole new skill.
Anyway, good luck with that.