Update, and angsty
Aug. 17th, 2005 12:21 pmHappy belated birthdays to
yiab and
pixie_ysral. You both rock, and I hope you had a blast!
I am angsty today. Contributing factors?
(1) I dropped down my dosage of Paxil to 10 mg on Friday night. I'm now below the therapeutic dosage level. Go me. This also may be contributing to my crankiness and angsty-ness
(2) With the decrease in Paxil, my light-sleeper-ness has returned. I slept like teh utter crapola last night, and feel really out of it today.
(3) I've been having this weird sensation in my throat, kind of like asthma, or tightness in throat... sort of the "it hurts my throat to breath" sensation, but not. Possible causes? Paxil withdrawal, Splenda, Aspartame, or Caffeine. In an attempt to make it go away, I'm attempting to cut all three of those out of my system today and see if it goes away. Problem is, I realized too late that my cereal has Splenda and my yogurt has aspartame. But, they have far less than diet beverages, so I'm still sticking to it.
But, I'm not going to angst on LJ. Nope nope. Because I'm not angsty ABOUT those things, I'm just angsty. And, in general, I've found that if I'm already angsty, the reassurance I get on LJ is never enough. My angst is an insatiable monster! Thus, posting in ways designed to help my angst often makes it worse, because I am then dissatisfied with the results, and that also belittles the efforts of those who try to cheer me up. So I am not going to do so. Instead, I will start a brainstorming post on education. Yes, that is what I will do.
I am angsty today. Contributing factors?
(1) I dropped down my dosage of Paxil to 10 mg on Friday night. I'm now below the therapeutic dosage level. Go me. This also may be contributing to my crankiness and angsty-ness
(2) With the decrease in Paxil, my light-sleeper-ness has returned. I slept like teh utter crapola last night, and feel really out of it today.
(3) I've been having this weird sensation in my throat, kind of like asthma, or tightness in throat... sort of the "it hurts my throat to breath" sensation, but not. Possible causes? Paxil withdrawal, Splenda, Aspartame, or Caffeine. In an attempt to make it go away, I'm attempting to cut all three of those out of my system today and see if it goes away. Problem is, I realized too late that my cereal has Splenda and my yogurt has aspartame. But, they have far less than diet beverages, so I'm still sticking to it.
But, I'm not going to angst on LJ. Nope nope. Because I'm not angsty ABOUT those things, I'm just angsty. And, in general, I've found that if I'm already angsty, the reassurance I get on LJ is never enough. My angst is an insatiable monster! Thus, posting in ways designed to help my angst often makes it worse, because I am then dissatisfied with the results, and that also belittles the efforts of those who try to cheer me up. So I am not going to do so. Instead, I will start a brainstorming post on education. Yes, that is what I will do.